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it was 14 years ago.

it was just yesterday.

it will always be just yesterday.

it will never be okay.

but we are eventually a new kind of okay.

it is how we find hope in the hurt.

God works in incredible ways.  Ways that we would never dream.

Another holiday season is done.  Another year of a very special ornament on the tree representing a baby boy who will forever be etched in our family’s hearts.  This holiday season it seems God felt it time to open the carefully closed curtains and let some air and light in on the pain that doesn’t completely go away even after all these years.

It seems my facebook feed knows where my soft spot lies . . . it fills with families asking for prayers for their sick children, the little ones who are fighting to stay on this earth but will eventually move on to Heaven.  This season in particular those posts multiplied.  The flu virus started a run that we haven’t seen since that fall so long ago.  Tears welled in my heart and on many occasions have spilled over without control.  You know your daughter knows you when she tells someone to not ask you what is wrong because it will make the tears more plentiful.  But the honest truth is that the best lesson I can teach her is that tears are healing and God’s way of bringing us closer to him.  It is in the many tears that we relinquish control.

I keep books of photos close at hand but tucked away in a well loved cabinet that itself holds my most precious childhood memories.  It has been years since this small book has been brought out.

it holds the only pictures I have of a nephew that I loved with all my heart.  A squishy, happy, little boy who at the time was how I dealt with believing I would never have a child of my own.  I couldn’t get enough of his laughs and hugs.

and then he was no longer with us.

To the families just facing this journey I share this to say as you begin this unimaginable road prayers from others who have walked it will lift you up. You are strong enough.  You can do this even when it feels that you can’t . . . especially when it feels that you can’t.

There is great healing for those who hold God close through times that make you want to run.

Hold tight to those who hold you up.

Forgive and let others forgive you when a bad day gets the best of everyone in the grieving process.

Heal on your own timeline knowing their will be periods of tucking feelings away and then times of yanking back the curtain and letting it all out to get the air and light needed to deal with all the hurt.  Let your self love again, laugh again, and have faith that God is so good He will get you through everything.

and most of all never lose HOPE.  Hope found in knowing we will all meet again on the other side of this life.

I look forward to the day that I praise my savior in heaven side by side with this precious boy, my parents, grandparents, and a baby that we never got to know.  In the meantime their memories are tucked in my heart and I hope to honor them by lifting up those in need of prayer.

 

sweet Wes, you taught me to love so very much, to be strong and to be a better mommy that never takes a day for granted.  Not a day passes that you are not still loved.  See you again sweet boy.  Until then enjoy fishing with Papa and let Grammie give you hugs for us. — love, Aunt Amy

 

 

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“Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” God’s Decree.

“Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other.
You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills.
I’ll make everything right again for my people Israel:

“They’ll rebuild their ruined cities.
They’ll plant vineyards and drink good wine.
They’ll work their gardens and eat fresh vegetables.
And I’ll plant them, plant them on their own land.
They’ll never again be uprooted from the land I’ve given them.”
God, your God, says so.
Amos 9:13-15

the Sea of Galilee
the last light of day on the waters that Jesus sailed

our home away from home on the first leg of experiencing His land

from the town of Jesus to the Mount of Beatitudes

on to traditional lunch on the sea of Galilee

a selfie with the big camera on a boat is not an easy feat!! and perspective is wonky but it is not everyday you sail on the same waters as Jesus.

today is the day that my heart realized true grace . . . my Lord loves me no matter what

 the beauty of the valley of armegeddonthe water tunnels are incredible even for someone terrified with clostrophobiathe most beautiful sight . . . an evening on the Mediterranean at Caesar’s summer palaceRoman Aqueducts . . . incredible architecture

hello Jerusalem . . . you are beautiful, mysterious, full of joy and grace

 we worship below the very caves where David hid

the very hottest I have ever been is at the top of a desert

there should be sunhats saying I survived Masada in summer

now on to the Dead Sea

the lowest point on earth where everyone floats

on to a morning that makes a heart heavy and hopeful in the same moment.

I cannot fathom the Holocaust . . . how do people think they have the right to take lives

this amazing woman . . . Hannah . . . best friend of Anne Frank lost everything and in losing all

she survived and found her future, love, her husband, children, grandchildren and hope
unlike any of us could ever fathom.  What a beautiful woman.

Yad  Vashem . an experience unlike any other

Now we walk through the last days of Jesus’ life . . . a journey alongside our Lord where we live what grace truly cost yet we are given so freely . . .

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I don’t remember a more exciting, overwhelming, joyful, stressful or loving time in our house than when we came home from the hospital with our daughter and my first thought was “oh my gosh this is really happening”.  There is something about those first days that are magical.

Eleven years ago there were not many options for newborn photography and I was to sleep deprived to consider doing it myself (and my skills were not up to snuff either).  We went to J.C. Penney’s and I now CRINGE at the thought of having my new baby in the mall touching the dirty dingy blankets they used for her very first photo shoot.  I truly was suffering great mental delay from sleep deprivation . . .that is my only excuse.   BUT as I look back and laugh at just one of my “mom moments” that Dani has survived, it feeds my desire to make your first photos experience with your precious new bundle an amazing experience!!

The studio is in my home . . . which I open to you as a old friend coming to visit . . . where you can be comfortable, at ease, at home.  In the Amylu studio everything is clean, sanitary and family friendly.  Blankets, wraps and props are cleaned before each session so you always know your precious bundles health and safety is even more important than the pictures.  As your chosen photographer I take my job seriously and have received the Pertussis vaccine and safety always comes first.  We work at your babies pace with lots of time for feedings, changing, and cuddling to soothe.

take a peek inside . . .

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and because I love them for all they do to support Amylu my two best loves . . .

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Newborn sessions are unique in nature.  Everyone sees and loves the sweet sleepy images of a brand new baby but I wonder if they realize all that must come together perfectly to get those perfect moments.  Tried and true techniques make for the best sessions.

The newest guide in the Amylu lineup helps to ensure that each new mommy is equipped for a perfect session long before she arrives.  It is a small way we provide so much more to our clients that just pretty pictures.

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so when you have a new bundle on the way give Amylu a call . . . we love capturing this special time and making the memory one that you will always love!!

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